Who is that?

This year has been crazy and full of the unexpected. Sometimes I'm not sure I recognize myself anymore. Being lost and empty has saved me, but also hurt me.

Occasionally in life there are those moments of unutterable fulfillment which cannot be completely explained by those symbols called words. Their meanings can only be articulated by the inaudible language of the heart.

-Martin Luther King Jr.

Oscar,
I know that I haven't been able to see you in the past couple of weeks, but I am still constantly amazed by your strength! I'm so happy that you are out of the hospital and I will see you soon! Keep it up big brother!!! I love you mucho!!!!! :)
<3 sister
ashley

Remember

Oscar,
Please remember me. I love you.

Sister

This puts into some words...

How I am feeling...

I asked you a question
But I didn't need you to reply
Is it getting heavy?
But then I realize
Is it getting heavy?
Well, I though it was already as heavy as can be

Is it overwhelming
To use a crane to crush a fly?
It's a good time for Superman
To lift the sun into the sky
Cause it's getting heavy
Hell I thought it was already as heavy as can be

Tell everybody waiting for Superman
That they should try to hold on best they can
He hasn't dropped them, forgot them, or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift

Is it getting heavy?
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be

Tell everybody waiting for Superman
That they should try to hold on best they can
He hasn't dropped them, forgot them, or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift

-Iron and Wine

My Brother Oscar

The past few days have been overwhelming and surreal. I can't put into words how I feel, but I still have hope in all that's good for the sake of my brother. Since I don't really have anyone to talk to, this is my way of sharing something that doesn't seem real.

My brother was in a work related accident where a valve exploded about 3 feet from him. There was about 4-500 lbs. of pressure behind this valve, and it is something that could have been prevented had people been paying attention to the work they do in the oil field. Anyway, when the valve exploded, part of it hit my brother in his head and knocked him out immediately. This piece of metal went into his skull about an inch causing a severe and very traumatic head injury. Had he not had a hard hat on, he would have died instantly.
He was rushed to the hospital where was put into a coma and then airlifted to another hospital in Lubbock, Tx. There, Oscar then had surgery where he had a 50/50 chance of getting through it. He had about a shot glass amount of his brain removed because it was damaged from the blow to his head. We were told that Oscar may not be able to speak, or understand what we are saying to him because of the part of the brain that was hit. There is no way of knowing that for sure until he wakes up. He has been heavily sedated for the past three days, as well as on a ventilator.
Yesterday was a day of miracles because Oscar has already opened his eyes. It was just for a second, but this is something that has blown the doctors and my family away. He was moving his arms and legs with a good amount of force, so the doctors have had to tie down his arms and legs so that when he does actually wake up all the way, he won't injure himself.
I say when because today Oscar opened his eyes again! This time it was longer than just a couple of seconds. He cannot focus in on anything, but he is looking around and moving his body. The nurses say that he is responding to pain, which sucks, but doesn't suck because this shows how strong he is and how well he is doing already considering the severity of his injury. I just don't like seeing him in so much pain. He also was taken off of the ventilator and is breathing on his own. It is obvious that it is difficult for him, but he is doing so awesome that I am blown away by his strength! That is most of what is going on, or as much as I can handle explaining.
We don't know how Oscar will be, or even if he will fully recover to his old self once he wakes up completely, but we know that this is going to be a very long process. Thank you to all who have shown your support and love. I cannot say how much I appreciate it.

To Oscar,
I know that you can hear me when I'm with you and when I'm not. I love you very much! I am blown away by your strength. You r light shines and your smile always brightens my day! I cannot wait for you to wake up, smile, laugh, and then tell me to shutup like you always do! :) I love you bubba, and I would do anything for you! I hope that you know that I love you more than I will every be able to express! I will be there when you wake up, and I will be there helping you get through this! Hang in there! I love you!

<3 sister

Meaning

I love this picture. I love the stories & meanings that come from it, and the history that his photographer was able to capture throughout his life. . What a life...

At the risk of sounding ridiculous, let me say that the true revolutionary is guided by feelings of love.

What a life.
Korda y Che

Love Bites

I think love bites. Literally! haha. I got bit by something right next to my heart tattoos, and you guessed it, it was in the shape of a heart. It's kind of hard to see in this pic, but it's the best I could do with my phone. Kind of random, but made me laugh. <3>

it's february

You know what that means....Hallmark cards expressing feelings for everyone instead of everyone expressing their own feelings. So tell me how you feel through Hallmark, chocolates, or even teddy bears! but please, don't anyone get carried away with love! ;)

The Fray

Some people have real problems...

So just when you think you have it bad because life takes a big dump on you, and you are upset about some dumb guy that has/will forget about you if he hasn't already, and you think that your world is crushed, you wake up and realize how incredibly stupid that is...Why? haha I know it's ridiculous.  Because some people have real problems... I am attending a funeral this weekend. My cousin lost her baby about 5 months before she was due. I think there are a lot of people in my life who appreciate me and I cannot put into words how much I appreciate the people in my life. So, to all of you who encourage me, listen to me talk about who knows what, and even put of my bullshit, thank you. I want you to know  that I will always be here for you in any way I can, and if you need anything, I will give the only thing that I will always have, my time & me! Life is too short for me to worry about other silly things, so I love you all! Thank you for letting me love you, but mostly, thank you for loving me!

Collide

I finally picked up my dusty guitar and here ya go... I am by no means talented, but I have always loved music and have always loved to sing. So, since I do what I want, I will sing and play the guitar, because it makes me happy. :) 

Oh, and I forgot most of the song. I haven't played in about 4 years.

Unemployed...

This is what you do when you are unemployed and bored. Make videos. Of course you do other things, like try and find a job, etc.